I think I am being too paranoid about whether I am doing the right thing or not, context being my diet at the core and then all my actions during the day. I am so conscious about everything I do and thinking if my newfound diet is the trigger to get me thinking about all that I am doing during the day. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I am thinking of falling off the wagon, but there is a certain obsessiveness that has creeped up in me that is worrying. I guess I need to tone down the rhetoric and turn conversations I have with colleagues, friends and family away from me?
It's Day - 6 and I am posting a bit late here, as I have been going through a tough time with my cravings. I think it has set in finally that there is some permanence to the changes in my behavior. I would earlier find solace in a piece of chocolate cake that is casually ordered in and then taken inside my room where I am well-hidden and wiped off with just enough guilt. Now coming to think of it, it was difficult to swipe away the feeling of fullness and the reflux that I went through at the time. Not to mention the terrible terrible itch that persisted due to high sugars in my urine.
I am still fighting the itch off, but there is progress, its slow and steady and I believe that is very settling for me.
Will be starting to add my current weight and my sugar levels in the subsequent Blogs!
I think its time....